I hit a weird lull today. Yesterday there was a lot of excitement (a job interview! Reconnecting with a dear friend!) with lots of nerves and java to match.
I didn’t sleep well and I’m tiirrreeddd. For the first time this month my seemingly endless motivation is melting away like coconut oil in bulletproof coffee.
Son of a nutcracker I just want a giant snickers. Like the king size one you’re supposed to share. I actually was entertaining this as a legit possibility. I’ve made it a month, after all.
I reached my goals. I’m feeling really good, after all.
But when I have my first big cheat I want it to be planned in advance and truly celebratory- not reeking like a giant steaming pile of weakness in the face of temptation. I’m not sure I even want to do sugar again. Even as an ordained “cheat meal”. It’s just no good for me.
I want to splurge on my favoritest food ever. Mahkani Chicken with plenty of basmati rice. Or a slab o’meatloaf with a pile of mashed potatoes.
So I begrudgingly ended up eating this instead.
Asparagus, that’s asparagus.
I did follow it up with 90% dark chocolate. No nougat, but it’ll do.
Anytime we make big changes our motivation is going to be highest when we first start out.
But encountering temptation and overcoming it is (hard, it’s hard) but really… rewarding in the long run.
For the longest time I was a sugar junky. I was a skinny sugar junky but one with anxiety, stress, and mood swings that would make me question my sanity. Then later I was an increasingly plump sugar junky.
I’d love to add more inspirational garble but really… don’t make decisions based on how you feel in the moment.
Eat an alternative. Focus on why you’re doing this in the first place. The craving will pass. Don’t do anything that is going to lead to regret later. Whether that’s food or any sort of split decision.
You’ve got this!
Oh and eat some guacamole while you’re at it! 🥑🥑🥑